viernes, 20 de mayo de 2011

She was everything to me.

The world was full of startling new concepts. I couldn't think; I couldn't breathe. I was waiting for her to come back because she was everything. She was everything to me.

Candy (2006) Neil Armfield

Candy and Dan...

Once upon a time, there was Candy and Dan.
Things were very hot that year. All the wax was melting in the trees.

He would climb balconies, climb everywhere, do anything for her, oh Danny boy.

Thousands of birds, the tiniest birds, adorned her hair. Everything was gold. One night the bed caught fire. He was handsome and a very good criminal. We lived on sunlight and chocolate bars. It was the afternoon of extravagant delight.

Danny the daredevil. Candy went missing.

The days last rays of sunshine cruise like sharks. I want to try it your way this time.

You came into my life really fast and I liked it. We squelched in the mud of our joy. I was wet-thighed with surrender.

Then there was a gap in things and the whole earth tilted. This is the business. This, is what we're after. With you inside me comes the hatch of death. And perhaps I'll simply never sleep again. The monster in the pool. We are a proper family now with cats and chickens and runner beans. Everywhere I looked.

And sometimes I hate you. Friday - I didn't mean that, mother of the blueness. Angel of the storm. Remember me in my opaqueness. You pointed at the sky, that one called Sirius or dog star, but on here on earth.

Fly away sun. Ha ha fucking ha you are so funny Dan. A vase of flowers by the bed. My bare blue knees at dawn. These ruffled sheets and you are gone and I am going to.

I broke your head on the back of the bed but the baby he died in the morning. I gave him a name. His name was Thomas. Poor little god. His heart pounds like a voodoo drum.

Candy (2006) Neil Armfield

I carry your heart, I carry it in my heart.

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows. Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide. And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart... I carry your heart, I carry it in my heart.

Candy (2006) Neil Armfield

Heaven, Earth, Hell

We had a lot going for us, we found the secret glue that held all things together, in a perfect place where the noise did not intrude, our world was so very complete.

They say for every ten years you've been a junkie you'll have spent seven of them waiting, but on the one hand it was nice having all that time to think, on the other, anxiety was a full time job.

Everything we ever did we did with the best of intentions, but events tumbled and the years pile up, the world is very bewildering to a junkie.
...and still you cling to the concept of change.

Candy (2006) Neil Armfield

When I first met Candy...

When I first met Candy, those were like the days of "juice" when everything was bountiful, birds filled the sky, a great kindness flowed through us.

Candy (2006) Neil Armfield

sábado, 14 de mayo de 2011

And will you leave me thus?

And will you leave me thus?
Say nay, say nay, for shame,
To save you from the blame
Of all my grief and grame;
And will you leave me thus?
Say nay, say nay!
And will you leave me thus,
That has loved you so long
In wealth and woe and wrong?
And is your heart so strong
As for to leave me thus?
Say nay, say nay!
And will you leave me thus,
That gave to you my heart
For it from you not part,
Not for no pain nor smart;
And will you leave me thus?
Say nay, say nay!
And will you leave me thus,
And have no more of rue
For him that has loved you?
Oh dear, you run me through!
And will you leave me thus?
Say nay, say nay! 
-- Sir Tom Watt

martes, 10 de mayo de 2011

This Too Shall Pass

- Is a proverb indicating that all material conditions, positive or negative, are temporary.

- The phrase is beautiful for its simplicity and yet incredible complexity. Only four words long, the proverb is short, and yet it carries so much weight. No matter what your situation in life, eventually things will change and it will be over.
Looking at the proverb from the context of every point in a person's life, it's easy to see the full effect. No matter what situation you are in, eventually, you will die and everything will be no more. At the same time, every emotion you currently feel is only temporary, and new events in your life will eventually come on and change those feelings.

- Is a powerful mantra that can empower and transport a horrible moment in time into something hopeful and dynamic.

- It means "this mood/event/state of being will end too". The phrase is similar to "all good things must come to an end", but usually refers to a painful situation coming to an end rather than a good one.

domingo, 8 de mayo de 2011

That will eventually begin to fade.

I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.

The Holiday (2006) by Nancy Meyers

The darkest days of my life!

I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms.

The Holiday (2006) by Nancy Meyers